father's day

happy father's day to any dads that read my blog...

so today we went with my grandparents, uncle and his fiance, and my parents down to galveston to enjoy a nice meal at gaido's.  it was delicious!  i got my dad a sappy card, but i meant every word of it.  i do love him.  he's a good man.  today i can't help but think about my dads (yes, plural).

i didn't know my biological father (i used to refer to him as the "sperm donor").  he made the decision early on to not be involved in my life.  it wasn't until after his death in 2004 that i found out he thought that my life would be better off without him.  it wasn't that he didn't love me, but he really thought he was bad for my life.  i really wish he would have let me know him and make this decision, but there is no going back now.  he's gone.  when he passed and i heard about how he had pictures of alex and me in his apartment and talked about me all the time, my anger vanished.

today i think about him (he father i didn't know) and i think about the man that i call dad (the only father i ever knew) and i feel love for both men.  my biological father did what he felt was best for me.  my dad has always done what he thought was best for me.  that's all we ask of our dads, right?  to do what is best for us?  to care for us however they know how?  i'm very fortunate to have had two men in this world who loved me.