health care

so i was thinking today about private health insurance.  my new job can't offer me health insurance.  i was going to keep working at the store, but i was thinking i'm going to wear myself out working 40 hours at the daycare and 12-14 hours at the store. so, why not look into private insurance?

what a f-ing joke!

because i have asthma (still have symptoms from time-to-time) and am bipolar (that's what i take meds for and need the insurance for) it's not only going to be expensive, but they want to know every little detail about everything that has ever happened to me medically.  it's bullshit!  i don't remember when i was diagnosed with asthma (sometime in 1983) and i sure as hell don't remember the doctor that diagnosed me.  the last doctor who treated me was a family friend and he treated me over the phone.  there are no medical records (shhh! don't tell).  why the fuck do they need a paper trail?

people are SO against universal health care, but i don't understand why.  why not provide care for everyone?  why not forget about pre-existing conditions (like asthma and mental health issues--hint, hint)?  why not give everyone a chance to be insured without having to pay out the ass for it?

i don't know what i'm going to do, but i'm too tired tonite to figure it out.

going to bed defeated and discouraged... :(