sunday night randoms

i may stop doing mid-week randoms because i will usually be working at the store on wednesday nights.  i think i'll switch over to sunday night randoms and sum up my week before beginning a new one.  whatcha think?

* i had a $700 sale at the store yesterday!  i was having a so-so day.  i was stressing over making my goals and having good stats (the goals were super high yesterday).  in walks this lady, and without batting an eye, she dropped $700.  lucky me! :)

* i am not sure, but i think the AC at the house is getting ready to go out.  last night it got really hot in here (over 80 degrees).  i went outside and the unit wasn't even on.  the fan inside was blowing, but nothing was happening from the unit.  it was hard to sleep.  i debated waking up alex and going to my parent's house at 11pm.  finally i fell asleep and when i woke up it was cold in here.  it was a miracle!  the AC was working.  not sure what happened...

* i really am enjoying my job.  it's hard getting up in the morning.  i'm worn out by the end of the day.  it's hard to keep moving constantly, which is what these kids need.  but all that aside, i'm very happy with my decision to take this job.  the people i work with are all nice, and the kids keep telling me how much they like school.  i'm going to implement a behavior management plan this week to help with the minor problems i am having.  the good thing about all this?  i'm getting my confidence back! :)  i can do this!!!

* M and i went bowling on friday nite.  i managed to win a game this time! :)  the 3rd game was SO close.  he won by 2 points.  next time i will dominate! :oP

* speaking of M, he brought me flowers again this week.  this time it was a dozen pink roses.  i told him he is spoiling me and setting the expectation bar really high.  i could get too used to all these flowers... ha ha!  it's sweet though, and i love to lay on my couch and look at them. :)

* this week my mom turns 60!  we celebrated this afternoon, but i offered to have dinner with her on her actual birthday.  she didn't seem too sure about it, so we shall see.

first bad day in a while

i guess i've been on that "new relationship high" or something... today things seemed to come crashing down.  not just with M (will get to that in a moment), but with everything.

i've been enjoying my new job.  i only have 4 students right now (all boys).  they are full of energy, but overall good kids.  monday was rocky, but it was the first day of training school and things aren't expected to be perfect.  tuesday and wednesday were good days.  today was not.  they didn't want to sit and listen to anything.  they were all over the place.  i had to threaten that we would "practice listening" instead of going outside (hey, it worked).  anyway, it was a rough day.

brings me to point number two.  i'm exhausted.  i had to work at the store last night.  i'm pissed that i have to work two jobs.  don't worry--i'm pissed at myself, but pissed just the same.

alex doesn't like the fact that i'm dating M.  he said today when i picked him up, "M is driving me crazy!"  i asked why.  he said that i'm always talking to him/about him.  he also said that he would prefer brett (he hasn't even met M).  i told him that brett won't even talk to me (i left out that i don't want to talk to him).  hopefully he'll get over this.  i don't want to feel that i have to stop dating someone because of alex.  i would if i needed to, but i don't feel li should be put in that situation (maybe i'm selfish).

then alex started crying when i went to pick him up some spaghetti for dinner.  he misses my sister.  he is sad.  i did my best to comfort him, but i feel like i didn't do a good job.  i would just like to take all his pain away.  i wish he wasn't dealing with this.  poor guy...

then i get to dinner with M (this is the icing on the cake).  he tells me that he applied for a job that would take him to australia.  wtf?  australia?  he would be there for 8 weeks and home (texas) for 3 weeks.  he asked me my thoughts.  i told him it wasn't my place to say anything.  he said it was, and he wanted to know what i thought.  well by this time, i was ready to burst into tears.  i had all that other shit happen and now the guy that i like (the one i'm calling my boyfriend) tells me he may go work on a totally different continent.  again, wtf?  i told him that he had to do what was best for him.  that his happiness in his career is important.  he asked if i was mad.  i said no.  why would i be mad?  shocked?  ready to pull away? yes.  he said he doesn't want it to change things between us.  i said long distance relationships suck (remember, 2 of the years i was with brett he was 3 hours away and i hated it.  can you imagine a whole other continent?)  he said he was exploring his options.  i said it's good to have options.

i didn't want to say much after that--about anything.  i wanted to cry.  not just because of what M told me (he's been my BF less than a week), but because this day was full of hits.  i know shit happens.  i also know things could be worse.  today just sucked and i'm ready for a new tomorrow...