people do stupid shit all the time. some of us (me) more than others. i can't even say what led me to do something so stupid. it just sort of happened.
it has been MANY months since i looked at anything to do with brett. i haven't looked at his twitter or facebook. i haven't even looked at his linkedin profile (nor did i ever accept his request). so last night, for some reason, i felt the need to look at his facebook.
stupid!
stupid!
stupid!
before i say what i found out, let me say this. i don't even want him anymore. i REALLY don't. i am happy with M, but i was at a place that i didn't want him even before M came along. so why do i get upset about things that have to do with him?
he's married now--to HER. HER being the girl he started seeing right after he broke up with me in july of 2009. the fact that he could move on so quickly after as serious as i thought we were just goes to show me that he didn't feel the way he said he did about me. that's fine--i don't feel the way i said i felt about him anymore. it just took me a little longer to realize it than him.
he's bought a house here in houston. he's got the wife, the fancy education, the job, the car, the everything. why the hell did things work out so great for him when he treated me so badly? wtf? and why does all this bother me? sure, i'm struggling a bit in the job and money department, but i'm pretty happy. i've got things going for me. not only do i have M and alex, but i have wonderful friends, my health, and most days i have my sanity.
so what did i learn from this? don't be stupid and look at facebook pages that you know you shouldn't look at. don't let curiosity get the best of you because it will never end well.
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