sober

i don't think i'm going to drink anymore.  this statement is not coming from someone who had too much fun last night and is feeling the pain this morning.  this statement is coming from someone who drank a little last night, never even felt a buzz, and is feeling the pain this morning.  this happened the last time i drank too.  that was when i went out and drank enough to be drunk, but i felt nothing the whole night.  no buzz.  no silly giddiness.  just normal.  the next day was hell though.  the headache.  the stomachache.  the dehydrated feeling.  it's just not worth it.  it's one thing to go out and have a great time and feel crappy the next day.  but to go out, drink, feel nothing, have an ok time, and then feel crappy the next day sucks!   not that i need to drink to have a good time.  i don't.  i drank a little last night and had a very nice time at a friend's party.  i just hate the sick feeling the next day when i never got the drunk feeling the night before.  am i making any sense??  anyway, i blame my meds (i blame them for every weird thing that happens to my body).  so, i may not drink anymore... just not worth it to me...