i'm talking about me! i feel stupid. i'm not sure if i'm stupid because i went to bed with him on the first date or if i'm stupid because i actually believed it wasn't a big deal to do that and we could form some sort of relationship.
it is thursday nite and i do not have plans with the guy this weekend. he hasn't asked me to do anything. when i asked him what he had going on this weekend, he said he wasn't sure. i would hate to be overly available, but i would also hate to miss out on spending time with him. i have plans tomorrow nite to go to a party at rhonda's. i don't plan on missing that to spend time with the guy. so that leaves saturday and he hasn't said a single word yet.
so i'm guessing, he's not that into me. i'm guessing that he sees me just for sex (although he takes me out and we do fun things, we always end up in bed). there is nothing wrong with that if i felt this was going somewhere, but i don't think it is.
i also think i'm very impatient and not giving it time to go anywhere. i jump to conclusions and worry about every little thing.
i hate this! i hate having to date. i hate what goes on in my mind. i hate waiting. i hate not knowing. i hate trying to be patient. i hate having feelings for someone. the whole thing sucks! remind me again why we put ourselves out there!
1 comment:
why didn't (or why don't) you ask him to do something? why do girls always wait for the guy to plan things?if you want to do something with them, you make it known and ask them. they're little apes...they don't think the same way we do.
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