i called my doctor (psychiatrist) today to make an appointment. i haven't been sleeping well. i have no motivation. i'm lonely. i'm depressed. anyway--he didn't have an opening until next thursday. i feel like i'm suffering here, so i wait and call the answering service after hours. he is on call and calls me back.
first thing he tells me is to make sure i take one of my meds (abilify) that i have been forgetting to take at night--it will even out my moods. he then said that i have to get some sleep. i can't stay up. so he told me to take a zanax and some benadryll and make myself go to sleep. well i took the pills, but as you can see since i'm writing this blog i haven't forced sleep yet.
he then said that he thinks i'm bored and need to find stuff to do. he said i should take a trip, hang out with friends, take a class, volunteer... anything! when i explained that i take my son to camp and then come back and go to sleep, he told me that i can't come back home. i must get out of the house.
i'm just so unmotivated... i have a lot to do around the house (unpacking), but i just don't have the energy. i need something to lift my spirits, but i don't think it can be found in a pill bottle. i don't know where to find it.
he ended the conversation by telling me to call his office in the morning and tell the receptionist that i talked to him and they should work me in on thursday of this week. that would be a good thing. i am also seeing my therapist on thursday. we'll make it a mental health day!
i'll keep you posted...
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