grumpy bear

this is me--i'm a very grumpy bear.  well, i'm not a bear, but you know what i mean.  i woke up yesterday in a grumpy mood (for really no reason at all).  i continued to stay grumpy throughout the day. partly because i'm stressed about money (constant stressor for me) and partly because i just wanted to be grumpy.  well, i didn't really want to be grumpy.  i don't know how to explain it.  i kinda figured that since i woke up in a foul mood that the foul mood should just continue all day.  i was being a stubborn ass.  i should have just found positives about my day, but i didn't.  i did make sure i went to sleep early (a little after 9pm).  i told myself before i went to sleep that tomorrow (monday) would be a good day.

fast forward to monday morning.  i woke up with a dark cloud over my head--literally.  the storm woke me up at 5 am.  i couldn't really fall back to sleep until a little before the alarm went off (of course!).    i proceeded to hit snooze for a very long time and was almost late to work.

work...  i got 3 new kids today.  one of them is supposed to be a HUGE problem (lucky me) in the classroom.  my boss gave me lots of support and help with him this morning to help him transition.  i was just very stressed and once again let myself get in a funk that i refuse to crawl out of.  well, that is not entirely true.  i didn't refuse.  i just refused to crawl out of it during the work day.  i'm doing a little better now.  i'm gonna try to relax and get rid of the grumpies.  although i let myself stay in the funk, i don't like it here!