that's me--fat! i know i'm over weight. i've known this for a while. i tried healthy trim (get "high school skinny"). i was so hungry all the time and hated the fact that i couldn't even have a coke zero or crystal lite lemonade. i think if i would just exercise and cut out the whataburger i would be better off than i am right now.
i need to get some motivation really soon. why? M is taking me on a cruise (i know--exciting, right?) i ordered two bathing suits from the store i work at (they are only sold online). i had tried one on that someone returned a few months ago so i knew what size to get. they finally got here yesterday (i'm so impatient). i tried them on last night. they are "miracle suits" that make you look 10 lbs lighter. they really work. they smooth and flatten the tummy and i didn't look like the fat ass that i am. the problem? i've gotta squeeze my huge thighs into the suit. they weren't easy to get on. they aren't the wrong size. if i went up a size the suits would be too big. i don't know if it was all my fat or the stuff they use to make it a "miracle", but it was not sexy at all (watching myself try to get it on). plus, there is no "miracle suit" that covers the thighs.
i've gotta do something before the cruise (i have about 3 months). i want to comfortably be able to wear the suits. i want to feel good in them. i want to look sexy (btw, my upper half looked really good--it's the lower half that needs work). i've been saying for months that i want a bike. that would be fun and good exercise for me. the problem is i can't afford any extras right now. i know i could just walk around. i may just have to start with that. something has to be done!
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