* i hate this time change. it has my body all confused! i'm so tired. today i was even late picking up alex because i came home from work and started reading some things on my lap top and fell asleep. i felt like a terrible mother for being late. good thing it was only about 15 min late...
* Revisiting 6-6-6: you probably remember this post where i talked about how women choose their mate. it's either 6 feet tall, 6 figure income, or at least 6 inches in the pants. i originally said i would go with the "package" because i need to be satisfied in the bedroom. i'm changing that... although size DOES matter, the money wouldn't be so bad. here is my reasoning: i have worked a few part-time jobs this year, and i'm having trouble making ends meet. i'll have to go back to working full time soon (probably as a teacher). the thing is, i've enjoyed working part-time. i'm less stressed. i don't have to bring much work home. i spend more time with alex and enjoy picking him up at school. so, to make it clear, i don't want the 6 figures so i can stay home. i still wanna work part-time.
alex often lives in a make-believe world. this concerns me. i'll be trying to have a conversation with him and he'll say something totally unrelated to what we were talking about (and he's serious). now i played "pretend" a lot as a kid. i created a whole world where i had different parents, siblings, and a famous boyfriend. i often escaped to this world. sometimes my actual sister would play along. i never told my parents about any of it though. it was mine. anyway, alex is always involving me (maybe because he has no sibling), but he's so serious about what he says. i think he believes it is real. that he IS a power ranger on a special mission. should i be worried?
i panic too much! seriously--i need to get a grip SOON! "the guy" couldn't see me last weekend because he was sick (ended up being strep). when he told me thursday night i thought he was lying. how awful is that? i believed that he didn't want to see me again. but he messaged me a lot over the weekend. he apologized yesterday for being sick. he came over last nite and helped me install my new (wireless) printer. he has driven over to my house late to bring me aleve because i had a headache. doesn't all this shit shows he cares? i'm just still worried that all he wants is sex (i'm a skeptic). i have been told by several people that i shouldn't have "the talk" with him (where is this going? are we more than fuck buddies? etc.) so i'm trying to hold off on that.
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