ok, so i like this guy. him and i have been hanging out for a few months just watching movies, occasionally drinking, and always having a fun time. i figured he just wanted friends so i was cool. it helped with the loneliness.
when i found out he was jewish i joked (well half joked) that we should go out on a date because i'm always looking for a nice jewish boy to take me out. we laughed about it, but he said ok. we haven't gone out yet, but have hung out a couple of times since then and umm.... reached a new level of intimacy in our relationship.
since then i feel like he likes me too. we talk and laugh and cuddle. it's nice.
well liking someone and thinking he likes me back turns me into a totally uncool, paranoid, overly-sensitive, mess. if i text and i don't hear back from him, i think he doesn't like me and that i'm being a fool. if he texts i see how many different ways i can read into his text to look for hidden messages.
it sucks! i don't even know why i bother. why can't i just play it cool? why can't i let things happen naturally? i get possessed by the relationship monster and i don't know what to do... HELP!
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