improvement is good

i'm starting to feel less distracted. i'm sill really lazy at night. i just don't have the energy to do anything. i'm hoping to start getting caught up starting this weekend. i saw my doctor today. at first he thought all this was a sign of mania, but when i explained how it could be situational, he agreed. he didn't adjust any of my meds, but he did encourage me to take my zanax so my mind would get a rest. i bet there are lots of people out there who would love for their doctor to push zanax on them... that stuff knocks me out. that's why i don't take it. i have no problem sleeping (although i've fallen into a weird pattern lately). my doctor also wants me to get involved in something that is just for me--like a club or group or something. i don't know when i'm supposed to do that. between two jobs and school and alex i'm swamped. i feel guilty if i am not home doing homework (even though i've been incapable of doing it the last three weeks). i'm glad that i'm starting to feel better. this has been a rough 3 weeks.