selling myself

no.  not prostitution.  although i have considered it...

i had an interview today at a school i REALLY want to work at.  i was excited about the interview before it happened.  i couldn't wait for it to get here.

then i got in there and have five sets of eyes looking at me.  that wasn't too bad.

but then they started asking questions.  i felt like i answered the first couple of questions well.

then i had trouble getting my answers straight in my brain before i opened my mouth.  i had trouble making eye contact.

the worst part is when they asked me about discipline.  this is where i struggle, but i wanted to sound positive.  i tried so hard, but i got flustered and nervous.  i'm not even sure if my answer made sense.

so now i'm waiting, but i'm not going to sit by the phone.  i'll be surprised if they call to make an offer.  i know i should be more positive, but i have this terrible feeling.  i'm usually right when i get one of these feelings.

i'm not giving up.  just feeling defeated tonight.  i wanted it so bad.  i even started looking at apartments i could move into in 2013 after i got caught up on some bills.  shouldn't count my chickens before they hatch...