short update

alex and i met J and his son at the children's museum yesterday.  as usual that place was a mad house.  the kids had fun though.

J and i got to talk a bit.  he asked if i was angry.  i told him angry was not the right emotion that i was hurt.  i told him it hurt me that he didn't trust me or my feelings for him.  he said he's been cheated on so many times in the past.  i told him i understand that, but now i don't trust him.  i told him it would take some time.  i want to try to make this work.  we both entered this relationship with baggage and insecurities.  that makes it tough on both of us.

but deep in my heart i believe i belong with him.  sure, i've thought that about other men.  i know.  i've been through hell following my heart with all the bad guys i've dated.  but this is different (or at least i think so).  when i met J last fall and we dated, i felt it then.  i feel it now.  we are meant to be together.  if we weren't, then we wouldn't be together now.

i think all relationships are tested from time-to-time.  i think with J and i our insecurities will be a battle. if it's meant to be, we'll make it through.  relationships take effort though.  even if it's meant to be and we belong together, i've got to put in an effort to make things work.  he deactivated his account when i asked him to.  hopefully this will not be an issue again.  if it is, i'll deal with it then.

i only have time for this short update.  i promise to get on and catch up on some blog reading and leave some comments.  i also promise to tell you about my new job, how my college studies are going, and all the other new things in my life.