i have always had something against valentine's day. maybe it goes back to high school when i bought my boyfriend at the time all this stuff and he ended up breaking up with me the same day. talk about rejection! i also think it is silly that we have a day where we are supposed to show people how much we love them. shouldn't we do this everyday? why can't i do it on some random tuesday in september? i also think i hate the holiday so much because i don't like being left out of things. when you're single and you see everyone around you with flowers, balloons, and stuffed animals it makes you feel like you're not special. i am special, so why does there have to be a day that make singles feel so bad? so the holiday is stupid!
i know, i know... i'm not single this year. i'm SO lucky to be in a relationship with M.
but i'm a hypocrite.
i hate the holiday.
i don't want to celebrate it and give into hallmark.
but at the same time, a very small part of me is disappointed i didn't get flowers today.
don't get me wrong. M sends me flowers all the time. i just got some beautiful ones last week. i would rather have the flowers for no reason than because it's valentine's day. but it goes back to feeling left out. i feel like i'm missing out on something.
anyway, i'm glad this day is almost over. it wasn't so bad this year knowing i have someone who loves me very much, but i still hate the over commercialized day of love. blah! :oP
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